Tuesday, January 31, 2017

I give up on Openstack

Dear All,

I was had bent on working and fixing OpenStack. But with the ultimate due things, and my own reports, I am giving up on Openstack. Marina Z was okay with it. But if you ask me , I would still like to fix up Openstack. Sorry, that I could not finish it.

Annapoornima Koppad /-\

Three requests -healthy related, money related and one more job request

My feet hurt like crazy. I used to walk several kilometers and still not be affected by that. Now that does not seem to be working due to which I am not able to attend regular aerobics class.

I am yet to receive my money from the course that I did at IISc. Can someone get the money to be released at the earliest? I need to return the money for Pyladies Conference 2017 that I was supposed to conduct at Bangalore to the PSF board.

Also, the PhD application at IISc is opening tomorrow. After the application will take some time till which I have to earn my own bread. So, I am requesting one interview at ECE department of IISc to materialize and give me a job for the next six months.

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Openstack Update

Two machines, one old, and another new, I may have forgotten the number of times that I have tried to fixup the patches so that I can work on them, but every time I run ./stack .sh. for the first time after complete wipeout of the non working setup of the devstack is not anything less than three hours.

Today, I did a run on ./ at 2:48 pm and it still is running after 5:15.

I really want to say, " Hey Bhagwan, manne oopar lele"

Saturday, January 28, 2017

My requested requirements for 2017

Dear All,

This month is the beginning year for 2017. The last year has been a series of  "shake spears" in the bum for me. I quit the Openstack internship for reason one and reason two. I finished a regular course at Indian Institute of Science. I was planning for a PhD anywhere but Indian Institute of Science. I found out personally using google, places that hire people to do their Phd and pay them to do so. As far as I know, only Indian Institute of Science does that. Reva University and M. S. Ramaiah University charge fees from students to do PhD.

I quit my Directors role at Python Software Foundation because I was volunteering for it, and I was not on official pay roll. I was not allowed the Directors allowance when I asked to use it for a keynote at PyCon conference. After coming with the set of my own personal problems of women violence, abuse of rights, hitting parents, and brother, I could not use it. So I quit. Not to mention, how the police are relaxing when I am getting hit, how the security sends me back to my parents house when I get hit and go to them, etc. They have always hit me. Why will they stop now? I wrote some things on the blog and they were infuriated. That was the mission too. Let them irritate me, I will irritate them more.

Just for one streak of brilliant worker in me, I had purchased the domain for PyLadies and coded for the website within one day. No money for anything. But I cannot do that forever, working without payment.

That said, I want to have these set of wishes for 2017.

I am applying for PhD at Indian Institute of Science, for three departments, namely ECE Department, DESE department, and finally the Management Studies department. Hopefully I get through. My first wish will be just that.

I have nose blocks in the night and feel very sick and tired in the nights. I remember being more active than this, I could eat more and still be running. I want that kind of strength, vigor in me which is my second wish.

Thats all for 2017.

If anyone wants to give me an award, please do let me know. Because from now onwards, its just going to be that. eye for an eye.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

As far as I know..

I am a living person. This world exists as long as I live. I choose to exist even I am not there. I choose to not exist when there is a chance to do that. After all, every thing starts at the smallest atom. That itself is not mine. How can I claim that is not mine? Everyday, every single moment.

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Arranged Marriage versus Love Marriage

Ok, this is a very personal post. My personal post. I disclose it here, not because I need to tell everyone that I am looking for something or someone, but, more because writing clears my head more than everything else.

My father and mother got into an arranged marriage. I dont want to write about them because this is about me and not them.

I have had my fair share of love stories from my school life. I had a brother who was just one year younger to me and I was always scared of him discovering my love stories and telling my parents who in turn would have me married among my own relatives who were villagers and who hit their wives when the husbands business suffered. My own parents' marriage was no example either for me to look for an ideal inspired married life.

I was in fifth standard when I felt what was the need for a girl or boy to need someone after watching Indian movies. Kannada, and Hindi along with their music got into system fairly quickly. English was totally banned as they included adult scenes.

However, I saw one movie with Silk Smitha biting her lips and trying to seduce someone. I tried that on someone whom I knew in class. He just got scared and called me a Bhooth and was stunned.

Then, my best friend M told me that she was in love with a relative in her family circle. I did not know what to do. That guy's name was same as her father's name. I did not know how to deal with such a situation. To think of a guy who had a father's name as husband's name was almost palpable, unforgivable. For me, fathers provided for the family, and husbands became ideal fathers after a while of spending time with the girl, and made more babies. Mothers took care of the children all the time.

That was my idea of family. My love stories have failed. My attempts at having a normal girls life have failed. Then after much dilly dallying, and exorcism type of threats from my parents and siblings, I thought arranged marriage would work and got into one. I am divorced from him.

That inspired me to write this post. What kind of marriages are these called?

  1. Girl meets Boy. Boy meets Girl. They get married? Without Love, money, looks, status, background, culture, parents convenience, etc involved? This is what I call True Love. Its like being god. To be very honest, I have miserably failed in finding True Love. I have failed at being a god in my own life, let alone others.
  2. Girl meets (______) Boy.  Fill in the blanks with the above options of Love, money, looks, status, background, culture, parents convenience, and vice versa. What do we call this? For lack of a better word, I call this prostitution under the hood of (______). For both girl and the boy. Should I call this a business transaction?
  3. Coming to business transaction, let me talk about this. Girl meets boy for a purpose, boy has another purpose. How do we go about this? I dont want to go about this. 
  4. I have finally come to a decision after this. The best way is one that I have opted for. I am a girl. I have some boys abilities when it came to talking dirty or doing heavy loading stuff. So, mostly, I tell people, " I have this ability". "Show me what you can give me for what you have". I might consider marrying you if your abilities are at maximum utilization for me". I rarely find that there are no takers for this type of marriage. 

Any other stories that you have thought of? Please let me know in the comment box. 

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Problems with Openstack

Dear All,

Like I had announced earlier about me interning with Openstack as part of the Outreach instantiated by the Freedom Software Conservancy. I have been running into lot of problems with the setup itself for the internship. This happened after I received the first payment from Openstack. Here is the list of problems that I have had so far.

I installed and ran almost twice on one machine, Dell Inspiron. That conked.

I was living alone when this was happening. I bought a second machine and tried installing Ubuntu again. Read about it here.

Then the second machine conked after all the efforts. So I gave up.

Now, the first machine, my old Dell Inspiron was somewhat working. I git cloned and tried working on a patch after that. Just before I submitted a patch, the old machine gave up. I had to remember that I was one of the eleven directors of Python Software Foundation. I decided that I could not handle being a volunteer director, then a teacher and after be an intern with Openstack.

I finished my teaching responsibilities working during day and trying to work on patches in the night.

Finally, I think my mind and body could not handle the stress of it all. I fell sick. No one around still.

I recently gave up my volunteer Directors role. I have already finished teaching responsibilities.

I got well somehow and after my mother did one thing. She went and put all my things and took it to herself to her house.

I had to restart the whole process again. I had to restart the internet connection at my mother's place again. Can someone advise my mother, and brother to stop yelling at my work? They keep fighting all the time.

More determined than ever, I started with more zeal and enthusiasm to finish the outreach program. My touch pad for Ubuntu gave up this time. I went to Shivajinagar to get the laptop repaired and at the same time, get the other laptop repaired. They sent me to Dell Exclusive Store near Indiranagar 100 ft Road. I went there, my touch pad was working. and windows installation was also working. They did some workarounds, I think and fixed the problems there.

I came home. Ubuntu on my old machine is not working. I dare not install Ubuntu as it wipes out the entire windows installation like the last time I tried installation.

I installed Oracle virtual box and then installed Ubuntu within the virtual environment,

This time, the devstack is not working at all. I have tried around eight times to be precise to get to get up and keep running. Nothing is working so far.

I hope my mentors, Rodrigo Duarte Sousa and Raildo will be happy to help me out of this situation.